boomin like a bass drum. sparkin up a rhythm
BLESUK!
Well, this is for You. I really like you. I’ll miss you. I hope you’ll remember that.
I don’t know why, but this mash up video boosts my mood every time I watch it. LONG LIVE MASH UP! LONG LIVE DANIEL KIM!
Hi.
I know that you will never see this. So, yeah.
I’ve just known you for about 1.5 years. And yet, I know very little about you. But somehow I do believe that you know many things about me.
We’ve been close for about a month. Only a month. I didnt know that that one month can be very, should I say, controversial?
So yeah, about several weeks ago we got closer, and people started talking about us. I was with no one back then. I was. So I let that happened. And then, I came out that you’re one of the reasons why I reconsidered about being together again with my.. you know. But we’re together again anyway.
Days passed by. We had great times. As friends of course.
Oke capek pake bahasa Inggris, grammar fail terus.
Jadi yah, we had great times. Main, bareng-bareng, ngobrol. Sampe akhirnya anda ngejauh. Jujur, dira kaget awalnya. Tapi dira bisa kira-kira alesannya kenapa. Itulah kenapa dira ga berusaha apa-apa buat ngedeketin lagi. Karena dira tau dira ga berhak apa-apa. Dira tau harusnya dira bisa nerima.
Dira nangis bukan karena dira ga terima, bukan karena mau ga ngebolehin atau apa. Cuma kehilangan aja. Bener-bener cuma sekedar kehilangan aja. Maksudnya, kebayang ga sih tiba-tiba ga ngomong lagi sama orang yang udah bikin nyaman banget.
Akhirnya pada suatu hari kita mutusin untuk sama-sama ngomong. Sebenernya kenapa gimana ada apa. Dan. A confession. Dan kaget lagi juga. Akhirnya kita sama-sama mutusin untuk tetep deket asal gaada hubungan yang keganggu. Lega.
Yaudah. Hari-hari sesudah itu bahkan lebih bikin seneng lagi. Haha.
And I dont know how often those thoughts come to your mind. Sering banget gaenak. Things go kinda awkward again. You feel the need to stay away from me. Lagi. Ya. Gapapa. I’m all good.
I understand why you feel as if you’re disturbing other people’s relationship. I understand why you feel as if you’re stuck between two people.
Yang dira gangerti adalah, kenapa kita gabisa biasa aja. Kenapa kita gabisa deket, main bareng, terus udah, biasa aja. Kayak dira sama Robi yang emang udah bro banget, udah sobat banget.
I understand that you think its best to stay away. I understand that you dont want to disturb anyone. And we have our own, different lives. So you have to choose. I have to choose too. If I dont, I’ll hurt even more people.
If there will be any goodbyes, then good for you. I’m not supposed to be this sad. I really like you, and I know I shouldnt. It is not your fault, disturbing other people’s relationship. No. Its me that shouldnt be behaving this way. Dira benci dira kayak gini. Egois, nyia-nyiain perasaan orang.
Cant thank you enough for all the time, energy, affection and everything you’ve been giving me. I’m sorry for wasting our existing feelings. I’m sorry for letting us go this far. And again, if there will be any goodbyes, then good for you. I shouldnt have talked to you anyway.
And I’M REALLY SORRY FOR POSTING THIS LABILE AND SUPER CRAPPY POST.
Bye.
Hari itu, kami bercerita, sekarangpun bercerita. Tapi kami yang sekarang memiliki lebih banyak cerita untuk diceritakan. Hari itu, kami bersama. Bersama untuk mencapai tujuan bersama. Hari itu, banyak hal yang membekas di pikiran kami, banyak pula yang menghilang entah kemana.
Pada hari itu, kami membulatkan tekad untuk maju bersama. Pada hari itujuga kami terus mencoba, walau tetap ada rasa takut gagal yang melintas. Tapi kami terus mencoba.
Banyak doa yang kami panjatkan saat itu. Saat-saat yang menegangkan untuk kami. Hari semakin malam, kami persiapkan segalanya untuk malam itu. Suasana pun berubah mengikuti perubahan pakaian-pakaian yang kami kenakan saat itu. Sangat rapih, mencoba untuk melakukan segala yang kami bisa.
Malam hari itu terasa sangat menegangkan. Namun kami yakin kami bisa. Kata-kata tak dapat diucapkan. We were excited. Rasa percaya diri mengalir bersama alunan musik dan ayunan tangan para pelatih yang selama ini dengan sabar memberikan waktunya untuk kami.
Banyak sekali yang kami rasakan saat itu. Mungkin berbeda tiap orangnya. Namun aku yakin, kami merasa senang.
Sekarang, telah setahun lamanya. Kami masih mengingatnya dalam kepala-kepala ini. Mengingat pada jam yang sama seperti sekarang, satu tahun yang lalu. Kami tak ingin melupakan semua kenangan hari itu. Walaupun sekarang telah berakhir… akan selalu ada kenangan-kenangan baru untuk kami… dan cerita yang baru.
Kami telah siap untuk melangkah lagi. Melangkah untuk megggapai harapan dan cita-cita kami. Untuk mendapat cerita-cerita membanggakan yang akan kami ceritakan kepada orang-orang.
Langkah kami masih panjang. Namun, kami akan selalu memegang komitmen untuk melaksanakannya. Untuk meraih dan mendapatkan cerita-cerita indah bersama… yang kami harap, akan lebih baik dari Cerita Satu Tahun yang Lalu, pada 5 Mei 2012.
WHY
THAT’S OKAY “RIPPING HEART OUT” WAS ON MY TO-DO LIST TODAY ANYWAY
(Source: mydollyaviana, via hazzlenutlatte)
Your Existing Situation
“Very social and needs a highly social environment with people who depend on him, in order to feel safe. she is a go-getter and can adapt to almost any situation. “
Your Stress Sources
Feeling empty and isolated from others and trying to bridge the gap between herself and others. Wants to live life to the fullest and experience as much as possible. she cannot stand any restrictions or obstacles put in her way and only longs to be free.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Current situations force her into compromise and placing her own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.
Is bothered when her needs and desires are misunderstood and she feels there is no one to turn to or rely on. her self-centered attitude can cause her to be easily offended.
Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.
Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.
Current situations force her into compromise and placing her own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.
Your Desired Objective
Relies on love and friendship to bring her happiness. she is in constant need for approval and this makes her willing to help others in exchange for love and understanding. she is open to new ideas as long as they are productive and interesting.
Your Actual Problem
“Feeling held back and restricted from moving forward, looking for a solution that will give her more freedom and less obstacles.”
Your Actual Problem #2
“Fears she will be held back from achieving things she really wants, leading her to search endlessly for satisfaction and become involved in activities which are pointless.”
